happy holidays readers!

lets see .. my xmas was boring. i spent xmas eve at momo's house though. had a simple dinner with his family and i nearly fell asleep after 12am on the big bean bag in his living room.

the whole week has been spent going out with momo. haha. yes we're spending a lot of time together. have to get used to lesser time when school starts though. helped out at the make a wish xmas party on wednesday. was with the stage committee. it was relatively fun. being the yg that i am, the best part of the xmas party/ carnival was the warm buttery and sweet popcorn that was freshly made. its tastes awesome. best xmas event of 2009 . hahahahaha. oh well

xmas was spent clearing out my room. i was throwing out all my jc notes. just dumped all the precious notes and readings that i didnt bear to throw out last year away. threw out some primary school stuff. i am really getting old. remnants of childhood is dissipating. sigh. i know i could never go back to those times. i swear jc scarred me though. while a lot of people are enjoying uni life and participating in all sorts of activities, i wish to just lay low, do theatre and finish up my 4 years in nus. organising events, participating in camps and all were that i did back in secondary school and jc. guess i am pretty sick of it already haha. oh well. looks like i cant exactly do proper theatre till 2011. unless i join like nus stage or try going into thespis again!

the year is ending. sigh. pretty fast. my life is pretty mundane nowadays. i wanna cut my hair. again. hoho. suddenly i kinda forget things i wanna blog about . my mind's abit of a blank now. i dunoe why. maybe cos im feeling sian. ahhh shall go catch some shows or sth

happy holidays!

i finally chanced upon what i wanted to read. i couldnt find anything much. but still, you kinda gave me an insight . it wasnt comprehensive. no. it wasnt. but you know, i got to understand you a little better. amidst the weird language. hoho.

went back to nus for first aid training and rehearsals today!! i learnt how to perform a cpr and use the aed. you know, i feel like going for a first aid course. i want to be properly certified. hmmm. i've actually always wanted to learn first aid, but i never got down to looking for the course, nor did i have any opportunities to go for such courses. so i might prob just go look for one a few months down the road.

rehearsal was productive today. we did proper warm ups and i could play with my character abit more. i really hope we get to do a next staje production next year if not i will die of boredom during my 3 months holiday and be artistically inept. hahaha.  thank goodness i have theatre studies modules during the sem though

lets see. i still have about 3 weeks of holidays left. this whole holiday has been pretty mundane. no exciting things. i got to spent more time with momo though. happy happy :) been playing a lot of wii at his house too. haha i am so tempted to ask my brother to get a wii since he's working heeheehee. got to meet up with all my wonderful and awesome friends too. japanese food lovin with my bus stop gang! <3 can't wait for our x'mas gathering weee. ikea with 3/4 of monday lunch gang , random musings over furniture and kitchen utensils, earl grey tea (brings back good memories!) and meatballs yo. and xiao long bao plus steamboat buffet and island creamery with my evils were the bomb!

the result: you have the men and women in your family telling you you have put on weight :( and they continue to stuff food into your hands. its okay la. fat and enjoying food. hurhur. no . actually i just made a pact to cut down on oil and sugar and try to like exercise. maybe i'll drag momo with me .heehee. i just need to lose a bit of the fat i gained from the inactiveness of university life and awesome food.

oh well. i like my hair though. its getting longerrrrrrr.

i need moolah to shop. im going to do some window shopping with geraldine tml though. weeee. new shoes new shoes! i was at mitju the other day with momo and he said i have bad taste in shoes. i was intending to get this pair of dirty pink suede loafers that i kinda like but momo claimed that its hard to match with clothes . which i dont usually bother with hurhur. he insisted i got the cream coloured one. i din get it at all in the end . haha. so yes more shoe hunting for me tml. actually come to think of it  , i do have weird taste in shoes. BUT I LIKE THEM :(

okay im feeling sleepy. guess i will end here. i was suppose to be watching west side story but i ended up reading what i found and blogging. now im real sleepy. im gonna sleep!

2009 is ending soon. never really thought i would have such a wonderful year. really. i thought it would pass mundanely. fast as it might be, its been a pretty good year :) on the first day of 2010, it would have been half a year with you. pretty amazing. for me at least. what about you ? <3

s'been long people!

no im not fine. im really bored

im trying to find myself. again. as usual. no im not happy.

my parents think i dont care about the family. oh yeah. if i didnt, would i still bother doing the fucking housework.

i need the motivation to just do something fulfilling in my life. i need to get out there.

and i figured i just need to take things easy. i dunoe whether i should think so much about things between us. love isnt enough. we all know that deep inside.

everyone is deluded and im just lost.

sorry i din exactly get your play ah bu.

one conversation and so little replies get you down.


fml fml fml fml fml fml fml fml fml

on the other hand, i pride myself on the friendships i have established over the years. i'll be seeing my groups of friends for the next few days, weee. spending time with friends almost always make me feel ... alive. feel like myself again. of course, that is done with great food. food and people. my two most favourite things in the world.

in case you dont know, im gonna go and do housework after i click the 'publish' button.

i hate the exams rarrr. and im cranky :(

i need to meet up with more friends. im gonna become even more socially inept soon. the evils, SABRINA COME BACK QUICK!, my bus stop gang who i know misses schooool! 2/3 of monday lunch gang :( and the coolie quarters people. ns ns ns ns. all busy with ns and church ahem hahahah. oh well. cant wait for the holidays to start. i could even plan a primary school gathering again. o i forgot my tuition gang peeps. haha. yeyeyeyey. oh god these people are gonna make me feel like myself again :D

and im gonna be catching a few plays after the exams. there's m1 fringe festival and the arts fest that i probably have to save up for too. but anyway i;ll be catching cat, lost and found by the finger players and the devil's encore by the playden production series. :D thinking of catching the peranakan play, bedrooms. hmmm. see how . i cancelled on that. maybe i might just pick up a matinee when i feel like it but im pretty packed for next week.

i cannot wait to do frivolous things after my exams. im contemplating whether i should dye my hair and not tell my mother in advance. hahaha. then im gonna go shopping, organise pasiiwjae, get my DIY skills going again, s'been long since any creative juices flowed through my brain. for the past week, all i saw were rows and rows of letters. i tink my speed of reading is getting faster and im serious about that. hahaha. i tink i need to study harder next sem! but the papers were all okay i guess. results are out 22 dec.

its the first time when i was a little bit more laid back about my studies. a little. hee. oh well.

exams exams be overrrrrrr!

exams give me adrenaline rush weeeeee

i need to exercise when the holiday starts. i guess i will have time anyway.

the weather was awesome todaaaay. no heavy showers in mid afternooon that makes me feel sleepy. and the clouds were fucking pretty. wished i captured it down with my phone. but all i did was sit in my dad's and admire the pretty skyline.

im going to the food fair with momo tomorroooooow <3

maybe there is an end

maybe i just need more time to think things through

im feeling fat and the exams are coming. which means i'll feel even fatter because i will be stuffing food my mouth every other hour to make sure my mind doesnt stray while im reading my notes. works like that see, when i read my notes, my mind tends to stray. but when i eat, chew , use my hand to put the snack in my mouth, the attention is directed to all that action and my mind can concentrate. okay i know that didnt make sense. just know that i m gonna be stuffing a lot of food, junk food, in my mouth.

guess i'll be on hiatus. two weeks only though and im done with the semester. my goodness. time really flies. and that sounded really cliche. i need to go and study more, learn to write analytically o.o and yada yada. just 5 daysssss. and i'll be free for the month. hope i dont have to go back to hall often for random stuff. sigh.

i woke up today feeling like i am in need of major retail therapy. haha. i need shoes and a cardigan. and pretty dresses. :)

my ts practical exam's next week. closest thing to proper theatre that im doing. i may consider joining nus stage in year two after talking about it with my friend. my ts prac groupmates are pretty fun. most of them though.

alright back to the books!

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