a beautiful morning tarnished.

ate so much jackfruits i nearly puke during lunch today. i tink yingxuan will laugh at me. im on a fruit rampage. its to make me shit better so i dun have to hear my mother nag about my bowel movements sorry for all the details but i just wanna prove my point. hahha

the central library toilet stinks . it has a damn weird fragrance. its gross actually.

no lessons tml and im going back home to stare at my brother stare at the tv, hear my mother's questions and laugh at my dad. in the comfort of my home, returning to a bit of normalcy and having some of my old sanity back.

i just finished a RP program. was about past romantic relationships. not that i have many and my memories were repressed. i tink i had a hard time trying to gather things about it. got me thinking though. im not in a very good mood so i guess its down to long bus rides and plugging into my darling mp3. i need to update my library with better songs. i keep listening to the same old playlist. its like im not moving on. haha.

oh well . cultural night tml. it really feels good to be invisible , as oppressed as you can be.

im not reaching out. im craving for a certain stability, with something, with someone. anything. i dont know how long it will take me to find it, to build it, but i know i will find it. gut instinct tells me so.

have a good week ahead people! and take care of yourselves.