the weekend was pretty shitty. but i manage to shit a lot this week. maybe all i should blog about should be my bowel movements. no. of cos not. it just annoys me that part of my mother's concerns about me is my bowel movement. i cannot control it but i can do things to make it happen. like many other things in my life actually.

i annoyed and angered people all the same. i am annoying, i am angry at the world, i am angry with myself, i hate myself for doing the things i do and did not do. i dont understand a lot of things. i wish i was smarter. i wish i could think more. i wish i wouldn't have to deal with all this. i wish for a lot of things. i wish for a dog too. okay sorry the last part was random. i'm a angsty person. on a sunday evening. and there's a list of things to do at the back of my mind. im not retrieving it. everyone should leave me alone.

sigh. time to start charting out my study timetable. tidy up my room to make it more conducive for studying. or maybe i shld jus go to the business library to study every night. hmmm. or just lock my laptop. hoho. the laptop is the evil being always calling out to me. like the bags on the spree website. if i spent another 50 bucks on that awesome bag i saw. im gonna be damn broke. hohoho. now i wish i was back relief teaching. maybe if im not staying in hall next year, then i'll find stuff to occupy myself. feel like teaching drama to kids or sth. could earn a little more pocket money and do what i like. my ts prac friend was talking to us about it and all. i can't wait for my exams to be over. i;ll be catching 3 plays in the month of december. weepeedoo

im gonna take a nap and clear my head.

have a good week ahead people.